Between the 30s

Between the time Jeremy hit his 30s, and I hit my 30s (recently), we have:

*moved from CA to WA
*both changed jobs (Jeremy one time, Meg 3 times)
*had 3 children
*traveled plenty in the U.S. plus Japan (with Connor, to visit Jeremy's sister), Thailand (with Connor, Katie on the way, to visit Meg's sister), and China (Connor & Katie, Kara on the way, to visit Meg's sister).
*said goodbye to 2 of our Grandparents
*been so thankful that God brought us together and look forward to His best for our future.

Thanks for being part of the journey.

Apparently...

... we have profound conversations while in the restroom.  I can think of several, but here is today's:

Katie (not yet 2 1/2) said, I was down the hall "Mom!  Can you come here?"  I had already given her toilet paper, so I was wondering what was the deal...  After I got in the restroom, she said "Um, apparent-yee I got some poop on my hand." 

Connor came to see why Mommy was laughing, so I told him "apparently, Katie knows the word apparently."  He smiled, rocked back and forth with a gleam in his eye and said "I know it, too!"

Catching up

Since my last post, we have been to Idaho (great time with family!), we now have a crawler, and a 4 year old.  My, how time flies.  Here's the best I can do in catching you up with pictures.

Grandma enjoyed all 4 of her Great-Grandkids

We all loved spending more time with Uncle Terry (and Aunt Ruth).
They graciously hosted us for a few nights.

Being up in Cascade with Grandma and Grandpa (and the snow) was a blessing.

Daddy (sporting his Movember Moustache) read plenty of books.  The Boise "Steak" shirts were from Grandma Dot.  It was a treat to match and support the local team.

Grandma got to love on her girls (and her Connor, too)

Both Connor and Katie LOVED riding on the 4 wheeler.  Next year when Kara is bigger, I suppose we'll have to learn to take turns (instead of just switching which kid is behind vs. in front)

We LOVE the blankets from the Scotts.   So cozy and so much fun.  This is the "party".  Apparently a party is when you spread out a blanket and sit on it with your siblings.

The sign says "Stop.  Mistletoe - kiss me quick!"

This is Kara's leash - er, I mean feeding tube.  This picture is from a few weeks ago, when she was scooching on her bottom (not crawling).  Working on figuring out a new feeding solution.

Birthday Boy with his Birthday Breakfast!  

"Yucky Charms". 

Sadly enough, both Connor & katie can now say their "L"s

Birthday cards and presents!

The favorite - Daddy's old tractor with wagon, "Dicky Disk", "Chucky Cultivator", and "Perry Plow"

Kara just barely fits into this Christmas dress.  And she sure does love to move. She does not fit into the matching hat, hence the hairclip.  (I believe the clip lasted 10 minutes before it was pulled out).

Katie loves her snow coat.

Kara LOVES her "baby".  She cozies her, and loves her, and chews on her 2 little ribbon hairs.  

(Kara says baby, Mama, her version of Grandma)

This is what Kara did this morning.  Crawled from 10 feet away and got into a toilet paper roll (which I thought was on the end table... can she pull up too??  Yikes!)

Papa & Mimi took Connor and Katie on the "Santa Train".  It's been around since the 70s (or earlier), and was a treat.  They rode the train, had hot chocolate, ate cookies, and sat on Santa's lap.  They've been asked at least 2 times "what they want for Christmas" and they look perplexed.  Trying to process "Does that have anything to do with anything?"

Katie Quotes

We have been living this week in anticipation of friends and family visiting. We are SO excited to have my sister's entire family stateside for the first time in 3 years. Hooray for cousins getting to be together! A dear friend (Mary) from college, and her husband, and sweet little 5 week old baby will be here. And Jeremy's cousin Jess will be here for a few days just after that. We love spending time with Jess (visits are too few and far between).

But for this morning, while I wait, I will pass on some things Katie has said this week. We have lots of ups and downs, but God is helping me notice the ups!

* We were praying for a child who was having a bit of a tantrum (felt like that was better than just staring open-mouthed), I suggested we pray for an obeying heart, and Katie prayed "Der God, please help -- have an obeying heart, and not an arguing heart." Guess she knows an arguing heart when she sees one!

* Yesterday the kids were running toward where I was, and I heard Katie's fussy "uuhhhh!" I asked what was wrong, and she said, "I wanted to be in front of Connor!" I briefly said that "being first" was not Jesus' attitude. She said "O.k., I will try to change my attitude!"

* Then this morning at the breakfast table, she asked me to sing "the righteous" which means Proverbs 18:10 - 'the name of the Lord is a strong tower, the righteous man runs into it and is safe.' and we said when we need safety, we can pray to the name of the Lord. She commented, "If a car runs into us, we will not be safe." My little philosopher!

The Positives

We have SO many things we are thankful for right now. As of last weekend (10/30), Kara has been eating better! She still despises baby food, but she is now able to chomp on some solids after picking them up (without throwing up!) New things we've added, in tiny bits, are:
* Chicken
* Beans
* Carrots, peas (well cooked)
* Cheese
* Life cereal (her favorite, broken into 1/4 size pieces)

The timing of this was great (actually, clearly providential) as I had been cutting back pumping to allow more time for caring for the kids. Today will be the first time since Kara was born that I will be able to go somewhere (the airport in this case) without bringing all my pumping things and figuring out where/when. What bliss!! A few more days and we'll be totally done. God has been very gracious in giving us a freezer supply that will enable Kara to have 10 to 12 oz per day of breastmilk until she turns one. Wow!

The kids and I walked to the library Wed. Clear, sunny, brisk day. It does me so much good to be outside. - Oh yeah, I also got to be outside on Monday sweeping up cedar needles that weren't sopping wet, hooray! I'm continuing to smile when our children echo me and say "Sunshine!!! Thank you, God!" Meanwhile, I'm also thanking God that He also created people (as well as climates) differently. And I'm thankful for several of my dear friends who love the clouds and rain, and that I know they are finding enjoyment in those days.

We have carpet in our home, for the first time in 7 years. Pretty surreal. And it looks quite nice - our master bed flooring is done. Now for baseboards. I would upload a picture, but Jeremy has our camera packed for his hunting trip with his Dad. We are both VERY thankful for the opportunity to get away, hunt, and most especially, time with his Dad.

In moving things out of our room and closet for the carpet, Connor and Katie helped. Last night, Connor & Daddy started to put back what they could, while Katie and I went to the grocery store. Here's a mini-conversation Jeremy relayed to me later:
Connor: "This is hard work!"
Jeremy: "It is. Do you like hard work?"
Connor: "Yeah! It builds muscles!"

Thank you, Jeremy, for being such a good example of thanking God for giving us work, and for "1 Cor 10:31"ing in WHATEVER you do.

Pictures

Every Autumn, the goal is the same. Find a semi-dry day when there are also leaves on the ground and when the kids look "o.k." for pictures. The only casualty? Naps. Not too bad, though. We need to work on our attention-getting strategies, apparently. Here are 2 from our attempt last Sunday.

Feeding Therapy

Oh my!  This is Kara and her feeding therapist.  Kara has been refusing baby food for over a month now and she would throw up anything besides puffs (split in half) and MUM MUMs.  She is, shall we say, high maintenance!  So her feeding therapist gave us some new strategies.   Now, we are able to get her to eat some baby food, but she feeds herself.  We have been encouraged to use anything and everything, dipped in food.  Both ends of the spoon, a straw, toothbrush, whatever... to get her to put food in her mouth.  She does eat it, but takes a lot of coaching.  I have never seen a baby who knew her mind quite like Kara.  In many ways it has been a huge blessing.  She knows her limitations, and that has kept her (and her airways) safe.  I have to tell myself that over and over when she's not eating and I'm tempted to be frustrated and/or angry.

Fun fact - it takes 4 oz. of squash to equal the calories in 2 oz. of breastmilk.  Kara is probably eating, um, 8 spoonfuls of squash (and I mean baby spoons) at a "good" feed.  We have a ways to go...  

Kara has a 6th sense about cameras.  She always turns and SMILES.  Which is wonderful... except when we want an action shot.

This morning's prayers

Katie - "Thank you God.. for my... for all of our food.  In Jesus' Name, Amen"  And then... to us: "I prayed for all of our food, so you don't need to pray."

Connor - "Thank you God, for a good s-Leep.  Thank you for our food, help it to... *thinking*... glory our bodies.  Help us to Yuv (love) each other.  In Jesus' name, amen"

Meg - (among other things) "Thank you, God that Kara is still asleep."

Since our trip...

We came back and jumped straight into tutoring for Meg, work for Jeremy.  The next day, our dear friend & mentor, Cammy, came from Southern California to help and encourage.  Meg had vein surgery Friday and Monday.  It was minor as far as surgeries go, and we're SO thankful for the provision that enabled us to have this done!  What a blessing to be able to just talk with Cammy, and to have an opportunity for our children to get to know her. 

Now things are... shall we say... normal.  Kara's feeding continues to be a challenge and and opportunity to learn to, (while seeing our deficiencies), trust the Lord.  We often choose to share (and try to focus on) the positives - she is growing and developing. 

Vacation & after

We left for Grandma Dot & Grandpa Fred's (in New Mexico) on 9/27, and boy have we been busy since!  We had such a wonderful time.  God was so gracious to provide 80 degree weather which meant lots of time outside.

We enjoyed SO many special privileges.  The top highlights for us were (disclaimer: Meg is speaking for everyone, so it might not be 100% accurate):
All - Time with Grandma and Grandpa.  We feel so loved and welcomed, and appreciate the extra hands that enable us to spend more time enjoying the kids (or going to Starbucks during naptime!)  We enjoyed all the things we did and all the things they provided for our comfort and enjoyment, but mostly enjoyed THEM.
Jeremy -
1) Time with our dear friends, the Schmidts and the Cantwells
2) lunch at Papa Nachos - carne asada tacos with lime, GREEN CHILE salsa, and sopa pillas.  YUM
Meg -
1) Going on leisurely walks (whether or not Kara is sleeping)
2) Time to get a bit of a start on Kara's baby book
Connor -
1) Learning to ride a tricycle (John Deere, of course)
2) His tractor shirt and hat (John Deere).  I think he's worn them every second since we've returned (except for the 2 hrs every few days that it's in the wash!
Katie -
1) First airplane ride on Grandpa Fred's airplane "It's so big!" and the tractor
2) Picking vegetables from the garden and spraying bugs (well, usually just spraying her mouth) with the spray bottle.  Have I mentioned that she says "I'd like to wash my tongue!" when we see a water fountain?
Kara -
1) Sitting and enjoying the scenery.  Especially while watching the hot air balloons
2) Having Daddy feed her lots and lots.

You're Hired!

Wow, they are getting so big.  Here are achievements from yesterday or today:

Connor - got out of tub, dried self, and completely dressed himself (in an outfit that's almost too small - quite a feat).  Only later, after pottying did I notice he forgot underwear... oops!  Oh well, I'm not a picky employer.

Katie - we only knew she was awake and out of bed upon hearing the toilet flush.

Kara - I just went in to peek on her.  I had reluctantly put her to nap while on a feed (she tends to be mischievous with her tube) but she REALLY was acting like she needed it.  When I peeked, she had found her lovey and put in her binky. 

I think I'd better pay attention, or I'm going to work myself out of a job!

Our top ways to spill milk (and sometimes cry over it!)

By order of frequency:
1) Meg - forget to unclamp Kara's extension tube (connects the tummy port to the feedbag tube) and press "start".  Come back 10 to 20 minutes later and discover a huge puddle on the floor because the pressure has caused the medport door to pop open and feed the carpet instead of the Kara.

2) Kara - because sick or due to overfeeding, throw up large quantities of milk on Mommy, Kara, the glider rocker and the floor.

3) Kara - find the BEST toy, EVER - the extension tube.  Chew on it and play with it so it comes out of the tummy.  Since Kara's one-way valve into her tummy is no longer one-way, milk comes out of her tummy AND out of the feedbag during the feed.  2 for 1 FUN!  (We do have an old extension tube that is, honestly, her favorite toy - but it doesn't always prevent this scenario).

4) Kara - roll over and turn 180 degrees in the crib to find where the extension tube meets the feedbag tube and munch on it.  Pop the medport door open so a few ounces spill out before Mommy investigates.  Remind Mommy to be thankful that her babies aren't early crawlers/rollers and that she has already had a long time without worrying about these shenanigans.

5) Meg - have a spastic hand movement at 5:45 a.m. after pumping and knock an 8 oz bottle over, spilling most of it on the counter.

6) Katie - decide that the leg works just as well as a flat surface for placing a 3/4 full cup.  (Oh, wait, this wasn't milk, this was grape juice!!)

We are trying to laugh, instead of cry, and even typing this out is helping me have a "Merry heart" which "does good like a medicine"  Prov. 17:22

Katie mentioned to me both yesterday and today that she would like me to wear my flower pants.  I think I was at least in high school before I tried to tell my Mom what to wear... hmm...

Here are some pics of the kiddos:

The bumbo seat is great for all our kids!

 Enjoying Jeremy's work picnic (and some chocolate, apparently)

 Sweetness (and some squash?  Or is that green beans?  Poor 3rd child, 

Mommy doesn't even know what's on your face in this picture.)

 We LOVE these special shirts, that were special ordered for Kara 

from our friend, Anastacia (and her family).  Thanks!

 The boogies, loving on the Kara!

Cranes, Forklifts, and Diggers!

Today I (Jeremy) took Connor and Katie to a job site to see some construction.  I was hoping to see three concrete wall panels be installed.  But they were a couple hours behind schedule so we just watched them raise a wide flange beam and some metal decking.

We also saw a digger (front end loader/back hoe) and a large fork lift scurry in and out of the building.  I had a great time and I think they did too.

Kara Update

It has been a while (I think... I'm not THE best at keeping track) since a Kara update. Oh, sweet Kara. She brings joy wherever she goes. We were at Children's yesterday and she got at least 4 comments about what a sweet baby she is (big smiles help). This from people who see babies ALL day long. She is a very content baby (if you don't count the week where I wasn't putting her down for naps quick enough as well as she was in pain because we had prematurely lowered her reflux meds, but I digress...).

She is occasionally taking (like just now) a 5.5 or 6 ounce bottle by mouth. Woo hoo! I thought that eating didn't fatigue her too much - or that I couldn't see signs of fatigue. I have since realized that it does. She no longer does the "suck-suck-pant-pant-pant-pant" that she used to do. But she does have a higher breathing rate, and her chest looks tighter (technical term is restricted, I believe). And she takes breathing breaks. It took me about 2 weeks to realize this, as well. She would stop eating and push the bottle out, so I would do the normal Mom thing and burp her. About 2 seconds later, she would fuss, arch back and grab at the bottle. I was pretty perplexed until I finally realized she was just needing a few big breaths and then was ready for more milk. Sweet Kara, she IS much more "normal" but not so much that I can put it on autopilot. I still need to evaluate, pay attention and calculate calories.

she's also very much a normal 6 month old. Sitting up, grabbing at everything (currently going for keyboard and mouse) and very distracted by brother & sister. She eats MUCH better if I discipline myself to go to another room for her 30 min. bottle. Another situation of deciding what's "best" for which child at which moment and trying to not ALWAYS put the same child's needs ahead of the others.

Please continue to pray for Jeremy & I. We are weary - God's Plan A is hard for us to accept with joy, at this moment. Thank you.

Potty Humor

The scene: 3 kids and Mom are in the family room. C & KT are eating picnic lunch. Kara is playing on the floor, Mom is pumping. Katie announces she has to potty and needs help with her pants. In a moment, off she goes to potty. Soon after, we hear "Mommy! I had a pooper! And I pee peed all everywhere... all over the seat". Connor asks "May I go give her some toi-yet paper?" I answer yes, and off Connor goes, saying "Katie, I'm coming to the wes-cue!"

Does it get any better?

Actually, it does. When I was able, I went to see Katie. Katie's version of pee peeing all everywhere consisted of only some dribble on and under the seat (which she had wiped the seat, just not the under part). And so ends our morning.

Picture!

Looks like I need to begin downsizing all our pictures to make the file smaller before uploading - um, what that might mean is that I'll blog less pictures, sad! Hopefully that is not the case. Here is a picture of our good friend, Kate with the kiddos. As you can tell, the kids are SO sad (ha!) that Mommy had to tutor and Kate was watching them with her brother, Matthew.

Quotes

Kara - pppplllllppppplllll (blowing raspberries)

Katie - (follow up to a comment I made about when Connor was a baby): "When Connor was a baby, he slept in Kara's bed. And then he was a boog, and then I was a baby and I slept in Kara's bed."

Connor - his first completely made up rhyme (that actually rhymes): "If you have a super gun, you could have a little fun!"

Update

It has taken a while to get this posted. Reason one - life is busy! Tutoring has started, we've been able to be at my Mom's for a bit to help with her knee, and normal life with Kara is keeping us more than occupied. Reason two - we cannot get pictures uploaded. Bummer. Maybe fixing that will make its way to the top of the to do list eventually, in the meanwhile here's the verbal account of what's been going on.

Connor - I do not think I've blogged this (my apologies if I have). One day at my Mom's house, Connor looks at his elbow and says "I only have one funny bone. This one's serious."
Yesterday at breakfast, Katie wanted to use an adult chair (not good for spilling, so she sits on an easier to clean chair), and I said when she was older. Connor then told her, "Katie, when you are a Mommy and you (looking at me) are a Grandmommy, then..." and he continued to narrate all the wonderful things that would happen then.

Growing kids - We went to help my Mom refill ice packs, etc., the other day and I had forgotten my keys. We went to the sliding glass door to try to sneak in. It was unlocked, but there was a bar in place that only enabled the door to open a few inches. It was quickly apparent that I would not fit through, even sideways. I had Connor try, but his head could not make it through. Thankfully, Katie was able to get through. After quite a bit of explanation and almost some tears, I tried to see if I could get my head in to help explain. And I could. So... the insight we gained is that, yes, Connor's head is large. In fact, it's larger than mine. We have not joked about this to him (and ask for you to do the same). My brother distinctly remembers being self conscious about his big head (at about age 4). But for now, we enjoy a little chuckle about it, and wrote it in his journal for him to read later =)

Kara had her 6 month check up. She's doing great. Eating-wise she's about 50% (going down because her volumes are going up). Please be praying for wisdom as we continue to tweak things for what's best for our family. Keeping up with her milk and her increasing needs because she's older is a challenge. Also pray that she will really start to eat solids.

Her length is 75th percentile - it's been identical to Katie's at 2 months, 4 months, and now 6 months. Hooray! Her weight is low for her length, so I need to increase her calories. Again, I'm reminded to be thankful for that gift - she is able to develop (is now sitting independently for a few minutes), and grow length-wise because we can give her food. I'm also reminded how abnormal it is, for me anyway, to be so consumed with exactly what my baby eats. What a great chance to cast my cares on the Lord.

Oh, and we have been enjoying unseasonably awesome weather here. SUCH a blessing. Such GRACE! As we say in our household for sunshine, "Thank you, God!" or "Mommy, there's sunshine! We can go on a walk!"

Friends

We were so blessed this week by visits from friends from college: Dan & Carlee, and Mary. What a blessing to have the opportunity to slow down and reflect as we caught up on what the Lord is doing in each of our lives.

I am so thankful to peek into their lives, on the outside, and clearly see God's hand, His provision, His leading, and remember that He is doing the same in ours - I just can't see it from the outside but am called to trust on the inside. Even from the inside, we have been privileged to see God's abundant grace. Kara continues to move along, and we are learning to adjust. She no longer sleeps as well on the road, so we're at home more.

Pictures are not uploading at the moment, so I'll have to try again. We have been so thankful for great weather (in my mind that means sunshine!) the last 2 weeks, a few times of blueberry/blackberry picking, Connor rolling down his first hill (who ARE his parents, why is he just now getting to that??), eating at Red Robin - what a treat! - etc.

Moving forward, school starts tomorrow and my tutoring schedule is almost full. I was looking forward to the slow ramp-up, but God has different plans for me this year. My Mom just had a total knee replacement, so we are hoping we can be a help in her recovery for the next few weeks as well.

Campout

Our mini vacation - in our backyard!

Apparently camping is tiring, and "play alone time" turned into "nap time".
Sweet Katie, gotta catch sleep when you can.

My new tube, by Kara

Nothing tastes better than my delicious shirt - not even milk (which is why my Mommy gives me extra through my tummy).

Here's all the stuff for my feed. My port (surrounded by gauze, it's hard to see the actual port), the extension chord that then attaches to the feed bag. The feed bag is put into this automatic pump. The automatic pump is pretty amazing except that Mommy has to add formula to her milk to make it work (bummer!) so we only use it overnight. Although last night it still had alarms and woke everyone up even with the formula... hmm...
Not pictured is the big syringe to rinse out my extension chord after the feed is done. It's a miracle my Mommy is still sane! (Thank you, God!)

P.S. Don't I have cute purple diapers? Thank you, Mimi & Papa! We love them.

Cute Conversation

So, I normally don't blog on Sunday mornings but had to share this before I forget (and will have to write in their journals). Several cute things in the last few minutes. I'll share them all (pardon me if it's too long, proud Mommy!!)

J(Jeremy): We have different places at the table today for Katie and Kara.
(Katie is now next to Connor)
C (Connor): Hooray! I get to hold hands with Katie!
K (Katie): *while running into kitchen* I get to hold hands with Connor!!

then they helped put plates, forks, etc on table and sat at their seats to await "break-swift"
K: Oh, Connor ouch-ied my foot!
C: It was an accident, so, I'm sorry.
K: I forgive you.
C: No, it was an accident, it was not sin. So you don't say I forgive you, you say it's o.k.

A minute late, Katie made some comment, and Connor responded "Good!" Jeremy was chuckling, so I told him that we're working on responding to comments, and I gave Connor good words to use like "good" "o.k." "that's good" etc. Man, guess I am often teaching "Meg's lessons in manners". Never thought I'd see the day!

Two sides to every coin

I just love this beautiful face!

Here is a picture of her "G-tube". For lack of official terminology, I will call this the port. We open it to insert her tube with milk when she needs extra mLs for a feed. The gauze under is to protect her skin (it's very red and "ouchy", but thankfully not infected). We shouldn't need the gauze forever, but we'll see. It's healing a bit "wide" so we are trying to keep it stable so it will heal closer to the tube.

The NG/G tube coin:

We were given the "green light" to go ahead and start using her G-tube at her post-op appointment yesterday. Of course, she had pulled her NG tube out overnight (Wed. morning) and had part of her feed all over her clothes. The other side of that coin is that she slept through it - hooray.

Positives - no tube in the nose and down the throat, no tape on the face. We can now kiss whichever cheek we want. Hope I don't take that for granted in the future! It was quite strange to go to a Doctor's appointment today and not be asked about Kara. A bit sad because I do enjoy sharing what a miracle she is.

Negatives - she can still pull the tube out (she did this morning, first time I fed her). Not the "port" that is in her tummy, but the connecting tube. At least I'm assuming she won't pull out the port! And we have to get her connector primed with milk (so we don't pump her full of air) before she goes down for the night - even if we aren't going to feed her again for an hour or so.

The Katie potty-trained coin:

Positives - Katie loves her "daisy underwear". Is doing a great job all day and night. I only do diaper laundry every other day (instead of every day), and Katie's getting old enough that her diapers were not very pleasant. Enough said.

Negatives - Mommy has to drop whatever she's doing (pumping, feeding Kara, changing a diaper, or eating at a restaurant while feeding Kara) to take Katie potty. She can't get on the potty without help.

The Kara getting older and stronger coin:
(A friend mentioned to me back in May that maybe we should get together in August when things calmed down a bit. Since we came home in March, I have known that for Kara's first year, things will only get harder so we got together in May! I sigh and I laugh when I reflect on the fact that I was correct.)

Kara is now eating much more by bottle:
Positives - Hooray! She's getting stronger, and more "normal" - I don't HAVE to travel with her pump for her to get enough calories to make it a few hours.
Negatives - She used to eat for about 4 to 5 minutes, I'd put her on her pump and I'd pump for her next feed. Now I'm spending the whole time feeding her and then "fitting in" 30 min pumping some other time.

Kara's breathing rate (and therefore her caloric need) has lowered and is close to normal:
Positives - Recovery, she has energy to grow and develop as well as breathe, and can eat better. n She does not need "fortification" (powdered formula) added to her milk. She is eating much better with just my milk, her system is handling it better and she seems hungrier (i.e. more motivated to eat).
Negatives - She sleeps less (about what the average baby does), so I spend more time moving her from place to place or carrying or entertaining her. Our feeding pump does not work on just breast milk, so we have to hand syringe her feed into her if she does not eat everything.
Positive - We are choosing to "fortify" overnight so we can still use the pump. Looking at dropping her nighttime feedings here soon

We are so thankful for each of our coins and will find the positives of the "Kara mobility" and "Kara eating solids" coins when we get there. God is giving us the grace to be thankful for the positives and laugh about the negatives (most of the time!)

Thanks for sharing our journey!